posted November 06, 2002 04:13 PM               

And I have a meeting tomorrow morning so I have to go to work (BLAH).

posted November 07, 2002 10:03 PM               

recently i got jerked around by this community college I was trying to get financial aid for so taht I could FINALLY start my higher educationg which I have put off for a while (but i'm still young at a tender age of twenty so I guess it's not big deal...but STILL). SO anyways....I don't know if any of ya'll read my post a while back....but I'm living on my own right now, working full time, and sharing an apartment with my girlfriend (whom I've been dating for almost two years now come February). My parents are jerks (they're divorced so what else is new) and since they aren't going to help me for college, I had to fill out this stupid for with FAFSA (that government branch that distributes financial aid to people) and tell them why (through this form called a dependency over ride form so that I can claim dependence from myself) I am in the situation that I am in and why my family has not, will not, and never plans on helping me, whether it be for school or any other thing in my life. I even got my girlfriend's dad to write a brief statement on my behalf and went so far as to get some police dispatch reports stating how psycho my siblings are to harass me at work and public so that I can show this stupid financial aid director how bad things are with my family and if they did care then they wouldn't tolerate my brothers behavior. So I give them this information, and the idiot asks for my parents tax information....so i call my dad up and say, "hey, ain't asking for money but give the damn guy some information so i can hopefully get financial aid." So my dad calls him, and being that he makes too much, I wouldn't get any type of aid whatsoever....

but here's the kicker....
The only reason why they ask for the parents tax information when a student fills out the financial aid form is so that they can determine (from the parents tax information) how much they think a parent is going to contribute....it's called and "Expected Family COntribution" (EFC)....so i call this nutty ass back up, asking him why he keeps asking for this information even though i keep telling him that my parents ARE NOT going to pay for my schooling, and that it's redundant for him to keep asking me for this info....so he denies me financial aid.....

Meanwhile, I speak to his boss.,.....no help there.....then to his boss's boss....who goes on to say that since my GPA with the school is low (i took classes online with this school TWO YEARS AGO for christ's sake!) that they use that as criteria as to whether or not I get financial aid.....I was like...."Well why didn't that idiot financial aid director tell me this so I wouldn't have had to waste my time?" Whole lot of negligence on there part.....so she can't answer me and wouldn't be direct with me.....just a big f*$*$ mess.....so I'm gonna go to this other school in January (hopefully) and see if they are able to give me financial aid....I asked what my GPA was with this community college school district (i took some classes two and three years ago) so it was just below the qualification mark for financial aid....so right now I'm taking this cheapy keyboarding class that's only for a few weeks and I'm acing it like hell....so that SHOULD help......meanwhile i forwarded my grip on to some political people here so hopefully something will change.....

But here's the rub...
FAFSA (the people who give out financial aid) considers someone to be independent when they are 24 years of age or older....even though we ALL know that no parent is legally responsible for a kid after the age of 18....Well FAFSA has this silly notion that parents "should" help with either the first for years of their child's education or up until the age of 24....but hey, no one's sticking a gun to a parents head and forcing them to (although they should with my parents).....It's stupid because there's no law saying a parent has to pay for a kid's education, yet I'm the one who has to get screwed by the system because my parents are jerks......GREAT AIN'T IT!!!!

posted November 07, 2002 10:08 PM               

Thought of a couple more:

Wanting to talk to someone who only wants to check their e-mail and not talk to you, but only seems interested in himself, wanting to make a difference in the world, not knowing if you will and is there really enough time to do this?? I really wonder.

posted November 08, 2002 01:17 AM               

quote:

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Originally posted by duncanfan:
I have a big ass whine...I have tickets to see Duncan in Detroit, Nov. 26th, and I still don't have a babysitter. Time's a runnin' out.

Tina

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I've gotcha covered sweetie. Just take care of the airfare - the babysitting is free...

I'll whine that I'm too friggin' exhausted to have the energy to whine. To those of you to whom I owe emails, I most humbly apologize. I will write soon.

I hope all is well with everyone. I rarely have time to peek my head in here lately, and I do miss seeing what's up with y'all.
As far as whining goes, I heard that two glasses of it a day is supposed to be good for your heart. So drink up and have a little cheese with your whine.

posted November 11, 2002 08:45 PM               

as for that guy that was a jerk with the pretty words....well i got this to say for anyone who's going through that bs with a significant other or boyfriend/girlfriend.....so don't take the profanity personally....

no Be@ch (hehehehe ghetto term for b$%ch) and no a$$hole (you lady's favorite term for those mean guys) is worth gettin' upset over, no matter what......don't give them that satisfaction of knowing they turned you into an emmotional wreck with just a few words from they're mouth.......they ain't worth it.....don't even acknowledge they're sorry a$$.....life's too short for that....

but hey,,,,that one dude needs to worry about his happiness first (fix his depression) before he decides to start bringing you into the picture.....to me i think he thinks of you too much as an emmotional crutch....i.e. co-dependent of you too much.....

posted November 11, 2002 10:22 PM            

regrets are such sorry things. and he'd say i knew what i was getting into. maybe i did. but it makes it no easier now.

blasted musicians.

posted November 12, 2002 09:38 PM               

that's exactly why I don't regret anything I do. Hell especially the things I am doing now. Yeah, I gripe, but hey that's life. Best thing about it is free will: opportunity to handle/look at it anyway you want to. I think in the end that what matters the most is how we decide whether or not to let it affect us to the point that it drives us insane or into a complete stalker/psycho.....not so good....anyways, just felt like dropping a few words of wisdom......

posted November 12, 2002 09:43 PM               

Trish, have you heard the acoustic version of "Day's go by." If you like that kind of music, then there's this other song out there (kind of ironic 'cause of it's correlation to your plight) called "I'm gonna get through this" or "I gotta get through this." At least that's part of the main lyrics in the song.

posted November 20, 2002 04:10 PM               

Overslept.

Late for school.

I have bunk beds, sort of. I took out my bottom bunk and replaced it with a couch. In front of that couch is a coffee table. This morning, I fell out of the top bunk and hit that coffee table on the way down. In the process I managed to bruise myself a couple times and to scrape up my wrist and now people think I'm suicidal or something.

Then, I found out that Starbucks likes to give prospective employees an IQ test and hires the lowest scoring ones. The ones who can't properly place lids on cups of boiling hot tea. Itchy burning ensues on my hand for most of the day. Writing was painful.

Tried to pass out leaflets for a charity and since this is London, it rained. Wet shoes followed.

posted November 21, 2002 09:27 PM               

Since I got screwed by this one college basically denying me dependency status (i'm under 24 years of age) by me not supplying my parent's tax info (which is STUPID because i don't need it do determine how much the parents are going to help cause they ain't helping me!) and them saying my GPA from two years ago was low....I am applying at this other community college who said that the whole GPA determination ONLY applies to the state grants (in this case CAL grants) and not the PELL GRANTS (Federal Grants)....so basically I got screwed out of a possible @3,000 for no apparent reason whatsoever other than me not wanting to provide myparents tax information.....Aint that a bitch!!!

I swear.....some crazy stuff man....damn conspirators working against me....must watch my back.....

well, however, on a brighter note, I think I got approved for it at the school I plan on attending this spring....they left a message saying I had to pick up some papers....yesterday they told me that if I was approved that I would have to "pick up the papers" and then send it out....so I'm hoping that is the case....(crosses my fingers).....

by the way, I may plan on going to NYU in the summer....so all you New Yorkers better watch out.....
Tiddy Bear may be coming to yo neck of da woods!

peace-
Wee-Tiddy

posted December 07, 2002 10:37 PM               

I went to a concert tonight by myself because no one wanted to go with me. I saw Azure Ray, The Good Life, and Bright Eyes. I might have greatly enjoyed it if this short, fat, old, bald guy would've stopped rubbing his ass against me! He was standing in front of me and kept turning around to stare at me, *thisclose* to my face, then he'd start bumping his ass in to me. I couldn't get him to stop. The guy next to him grabbed him to make him stop and he ran away like a little pansy. He did this a couple of times. And he did this to just about every single girl in the place.

Then, I was waiting for a train at the tube station so I could go home. Another old guy gets *thisclse* to my face and starts hitting on me. "Bonjour mademoiselle... I am honored to meet such a beautiful girl... What is your name..." I AM 16 YEARS OLD FOR CHRIST'S SAKE. JUST KEEP YOUR FRENCH ACCENT TO YOURSELF.

posted December 08, 2002 02:00 AM               

Anyway, last week some guy asked me: "If I followed you home, would you beat me up?"

Umm, let me think about this one. Jackass.

An old man winked at me the other day but it was cute, errrr, kinda. Maybe I reminded him of his grandaughter or something. If not, then that's just plain disgusting. Eww, indeed.

Aside from the grosssssness, did the concert kick? I wanna see Bright Eyes!

Maria

posted December 08, 2002 03:23 PM               

Although, creepy guys could be ultra sketchy. You never know what they'll do. I pretend I'm all tough but I'm pure talk. Perhaps you could've pulled out the ole throw-a-drink-in-the-face resort. I saw that last week actually! A girl did it at my favorite bar-food place and she became my instant hero. The guy was uber white trash and he was cursing out her in public. He made this huge scene and he didn't even leave the bar. So odd.

I'm glad Bright Eyes rocked! I've been hearing great things about his live shows. Were there like a million killer musicians on stage with all sorts of instruments?

posted December 10, 2002 12:32 AM               

Hell naw! Should be the pimp Tiddy Bear (hehehehehe)....and of course you jenn....i think that title would be deserving considering all your griping and what not....but Tiddy gets honorable mention!

peace-
WT

ps. being single in my mind is no big deal. Ok, so i am in a relationship right now, but it's not always what it is cracked up to be, especially what I am going through lately...so don't fret my pet....just people putting too much of a big emphasis on marriage when all you need are the ones around you who care and love you....to be honest, that's all the companionship you need...not what society is thinking...

posted December 10, 2002 07:51 PM            

Being single blows sometimes, but it's honestly better than being with some jackass.